Qoute of the Day

A true love of God must begin with a delight in his holiness, and not with a delight in any other attribute; for no other attribute is truly lovely without this.

-Jonathan Edwards

So and so...

Never a dull moment.
My car was hit by a Chinese woman, who was distracted from looking a parking spot, in front of the 24hour fitness. Nothing too major but chips and dens are inevitable. Thank God the lady did not have a bad attitude. She admitted she did not see me nor hear me honking like mad. Ah! Who was at fault?? It is way easy to say it was not I but I will let the so-called adjusters to determine. My adjuster on high is the Lord. I have presented my case and I trust His righteousness will rule over my daily life.

It cracked me up that the lady even asked me, “so… aren’t you coming in to workout? We can do it together…” Who knows if this is the lost soul that belongs to the Lord? I will make my move to her once everything is settled. Even though I am not fond of going through the repair, insurance claiming process, and try to “justify” myself before two adjusters from both insurance companies, I will praise God for the extraordinary peace He gave me. I was disturbed due to shock more than the damage occurred. Nevertheless, the Lord is faithfullyprotecting me, physically and emotionally. He is a good God.

Two days ago… I discovered something that I would wish not to know. I wondered why it seemed so familiar and I instantly realized that I had been through this similar-yet-different conversation with Kerk Fong. As if I have some sort of captivating aura around me that attracts this similar spirit. When I was about to turn and run… Hua Jing reminded me that they trusted me and felt more than comfortable to be around with me. Suddenly, I thought of Jesus. I thought of the ugly truth that Philip Yancey pointed out – “Why sinners are no longer attracted to Christians?” I am put in a position where I feel flattered yet afraid. I hate to see helplessness in them. I hate to acknowledge the spirits that imprison these beautiful people. I hate to provide no comfort and fail to show them the mercy and love of Christ - when they are running away from Him. I hate being silent and not able to convince them that the Lord’s plan and His design is perfect for them. I hate to suffer from the spilt-over spiritual force. I pray that the Lord grand me wisdom and give me an understanding heart. There is indeed a purpose why I was reading “What’s so amazing about grace?”

“… I never find forgiveness easy, and rarely do I find it completely satisfying. Nagging injustices remain, and the wounds still cause pain. I have to approach God again and again, yielding to Him the residue of what I thought I had committed to Him long ago. I do so because the Gospels make clear the connection: God forgives my debts as I forgive my debtors. The reverse is also true: Only by living in the stream of God’s grace will I find the strength to respond with grace towards others… A cease-fire between human beings depends upon a cease-fire with God.” – “What’s so amazing about grace? - An Unnatural Act. “- Philip Yancey

On the other hand of forgiveness, grace serves as a compass to help me find a way back to Him through accepting my faults and guilt, and to embrace precious lost souls who have stained by sins.

I know that what I am doing now and what have started to change in this year are shaking up the devil. Though no weapon formed against me shall prosper and every second of my life is under the full covenant of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. His sacrifice has poured down anointing, power, protection, mercy, and everlasting love on me. For this cause, I stand, and I win.

Sleep vs. Prayer

I have been “suffering” from minor sleeping disorder I suspect. Some nights I find it hard to fall asleep. Some nights my mind is as clear as rain after a hot summer. Some nights I wonder why I am still awake while everyone has the blessing to sleep soundly. And some precious night, I sleep like a baby without dreams.

The strange thing is that no matter if I have a good or not-so-good night sleep, my energy level does not seem to be affected. I am awake. Period.

Chisso keeps telling me that it could be the Lord. The Lord would like to have a conversation with me… or my prayer life is taking another turn. It could be. I think I need a breakthrough in my prayer life. This morning Chisso asked me to read Isaiah 6 or 59… I did. The scripture about the Lord’s seated on high and His robe filled the temple has been in my mind all this time, even before Chisso told me about it. I believe now after all the Lord is "calling" me one way or another. I envision the Lord fills me up like His robe… just as what the worship leader mentioned once at church. I felt it. I’m feeling it.

Keep me in prayer about this. Please ask the Lord allowing me to enter His rest and enable me to discern His will for my sleeplessness. Whatever He wants, I surrender.

Isaiah 6
Isaiah's Commission 1 In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. 2 Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. 3 And they were calling to one another:

"Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;

the whole earth is full of his glory."

4 At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.
5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."
6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."
8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"
9 He said, "Go and tell this people: " 'Be ever hearing, but never understanding; be ever seeing, but never perceiving.'
10 Make the heart of this people calloused; make their ears dull and close their eyes. [a] Otherwise they might see with their eyes, hear with their ears,understand with their hearts, and turn and be healed."
11 Then I said, "For how long, O Lord?" And he answered: "Until the cities lie ruined and without inhabitant, until the houses are left deserted and the fields ruined and ravaged,
12 until the LORD has sent everyone far away and the land is utterly forsaken.
13 And though a tenth remains in the land, it will again be laid waste. But as the terebinth and oak leave stumps when they are cut down, so the holy seed will be the stump in the land."

The 17th day of 2007

Brother Yang reminded me that I had not posted my 2006 reflection and Joo Sim told me that she had been checking on my blog update. Apparently, I am way behind schedule =)

This is the 17th day of 2007. So far I feel energy in the atmosphere and for whatever reason I am excited of this new start. I can sense good things; I mean GREAT things are happening this year. Maybe, I am going to celebrate the jubilation by the end of 2007 with great joy and gratefulness. Maybe, God will show me what grace and favor I am about to experience. It is going to be wild, unfathomable, and mysterious. Maybe my heart is softened even more till I enjoy every second to minute in life. Maybe I can further appreciate the beauty of simplicity and adore the attitudes of the faithful ones. Or maybe I have deeper compassion and patience for people who are still blinded spiritually and rejoice with them when true repentance enters their hearts. No matter how many “maybe” and “if” I may come up with, the work of the Lord will surpass my imagination and beyond what my limited mind can dream for.

I started my exercise regime last week!! I made myself signed up with 24-hr fitness, and I am taking Salsa moves, Dancer’s workout, and Yoga. I like it so far. See, I like movements. I like changes. I am not keen on working out with cold machines. I used to be an aerobics instructor but I do not like “high intensity, high impact” workout. It might due to my petite physic. I am surely not pleased to see solid-built muscle bumps everywhere. That will make me look like a mini-super-mouse. x_x”

I have been reading “What’s so amazing about grace?” by Yancey. I cannot resist his presentation of truth in which we, Christians, fall short, and where only Christianity can offer. He nailed it on every page. Grace is never at the expense on the receiver but everything on the giver. That is grace. I will write more about GRACE… I am in a phase of permeating. Once the season is matured, I would have more to share on my perspective about this undeserving grace that we leverage and breathe in and out every second.

情深說話未曾講

Many years ago, I heard this song in a plane coming back from somewhere... I liked it. I liked it a lot but never found out who was the singer and what was the title of the song.

A few nights ago, I heard this song sang by Janice, a lady singer. I quickly amazed by her voice and how well she sang it. Unfortunately, I discovered the original singer of this song is Leon Lai. For a second, I could not agree with that.. How could it be??!! Well, I guess Janice did a WAY better job than he did.

The on-the-stone fact is - I never like Leon Lai. And I have no plan of liking him for the rest of my life.

情深說話未曾講
曲/編:雷頌德 詞:潘源良

仍然在遠方 追我夢與想
繼續懷念你 郤又這麼慢長
從前未會想 感覺是雙方
你若燃亮我 我亦要懂得釋放

*過去每日同路往 不懂珍惜那些境況
這晚我獨來獨往 郤是太後悔浪費時光

#你這剎那在何方 我有說話未曾講
如何能連系上 與你再相伴在旁
愛意要是沒回響 世界與我又何干
原來仍然是你,叫我永遠不斷自強 如晨光(情意比天更晴朗)(無數遠景再同創)
遙遙同往 (願再去找 更遠闊同行地方)

前進獨個闖 溫暖是妄想
每日來又往 也像隔一道牆
回頭又再想 心裡漸奔放
你若能會意 掛念己找到方向

Repeat *, #, #

Happy 2007

Happy New Year!!!


I am late on my annual update again... sorry.

I think I had a good closure for 2006. At least, I was one of the many witnesses for my cousin's (Lila) baptism. The year closed with a great testimony on God's faithfulness and the reminder of the God's soul-saving business. I pray the Lord will keep her in His bosom and His words be the lanterns of her feet. I pray that new anointing will flow in her and she will start to testify what the Lord has done in her that causes her to follow Christ through eternity.


Let me take another detour...

24th, Christmas Eve. It was my birthday. I was at church for the candle light service. All of the sudden, I heard my spirit said, "It is good to be alive and worship God. I am glad that I was born and now alive singing praise to the Lord." Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!!!


More update to come...