Thursday, July 28, 2005

The Final Analysis

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfishness and ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight.
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is all between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.
... Mother Theresa

Wednesday, July 27, 2005


I read through my written journal for the past couple years last night. I found something interesting that I copied from a book I read...

Science and the Story that We need - Niel Postman
In the end, science does not provide the answers most of us require. It's story of our origins and our end is, to say the least, unsatisfactory. To the question, "How did it all begin?"
Science answers, "Probably by an accident."
To the question, "How will it all end?"
Science answers, "Probably by an accident."

And to many people, the accidental life is not worth living.

找到了一张我在7月30日2000, Lincoln - NE, 写下的...

我们都拥有着一片属于自己却又变质了的天空. 陌生得连镜中的自己也开始模糊了. 曾几何时, 大家都忘了联系?曾几何时, 大家都忘了留意溪水和礁石的浪花? 那又从什么时候开始, 人们只许向前奔驰? 到了一些生死离别的关头, 再来痛惜. 很悲哀的是那一刹那的眼泪却锁不住忙碌的占据. 因此, 几分钟的痛心, 不捨, 转眼又回到了原来的样子. 很现实吧? 我们何尝不是正扮演着这样的一个角色?

... 不过, 今天的我不愿意去执着. 因为, 沉溺在过去就会忘了今天的祝福和明天的希望. 要向前走就不能背着包袱, 纵使是一个遗憾!!我是如此地固执地相信.

Monday, July 25, 2005


今天, 我有很努力地在呼吸.
很滑稽, 却很有效.

今天, 那不冷也不热的天气让我享受了25分钟的溜跶.
艳阳天, 舒逸的风, 还有王菲的歌.
足够了, 就这样.

今天, 原因不详.
没有妄想, 只有一点点的想念.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Peace finally finds its way home to my heart.

Peace finally finds its way home to my heart.
Pastor Dick's message today was spoken directly to the question that had been dancing around in my head for the past few days. I sighed. What a wonderful God who is mindful of me, who hears the quiet whisper of me, and who have seen the beginning and the end of me... yet, He chose to be with me. I can't help but sigh.

Today's message was about the covenant of recovery, 1 Samuel 30. Through the passages, we saw how David lost everything in a day... how he was great distressed and consumed with sorrows... BUT he strengthened himself through God... he chose to listen to God's voice, and he finally recovered ALL that he lost.

Pastor Dick shared his story of how he got in and out of his first marriage with unspeakable regrets and failures to be a husband and a father. He thought he deserved to atone and bear his sin for the rest of his life. He thought he could never have a chance to be a true father to his first-born son. Nevertheless, God's grace stretches out to places that we find no hope. God restored everything back to Pastor Dick. His son - Adam, became Pastor Adam... and they have been working together for the kingdom of God for the past 15 years.

This is what I called the 3Gs - God, Grace, and Glory.

终于, 可以感到平静的脚步来临.
纵使, 只有一秒钟
曾经, 我说过每分钟的开心与否都属于自己的
有些痕迹可以很深, 有些却禁不起忙碌的来侵
无论结果是什么, 每一个片段都应该学会去珍惜

也许这样, 我能够忽然消逝

有他, 我愿意面对

Friday, July 22, 2005

Broken pieces

1. When I am struggling with my full plate of work and disturbing thoughts, another part of the world just breaks out with unexpected news. All of the sudden, I came to realize how pitiful I am to just get beaten up by life’s little stories. My dear friend just presented me her questions about life unexpected events, which no answer can ease her shock.

2. … BC said, “regardless if God brings me down or puts me on the high place, all I need to do is to do His will. I cannot expect Him to bless me but I just want to do what He asks of me…” This is precious. See him growing each day under the wings of the Lord, I cannot be more thankful.

3. As for JS, I wish you could understand one day… It is all right if the “one-day” is never though.

4. I wonder why I am the one going through the hassles to defend YZ and to protect his heart. I do not complain of my decision and ask not for sympathy. All I ask is that my Lord will give me strength to carry on.

5. Hua Jing, I am blessed and thankful for you. You know who I am.

I guess I take the little stories too serious. I try to encourage myself and speak the words of victory yet I cannot hide my desire of going Home, where I can be free and drink in only beauty and joy.

Despite of the fact that I am a little weak I still want to praise the Lord of His loving kindness. I still want to love Him with all that I am. I still want to do His will even if it costs me everything. I still want to pursue His beauty and grace while I might face my darkest night. I still want to enter His rest when I am not worthy.

My daily bread:
Wounded Oysters

When seemingly needless suffering invades our lives, we often ask ourselves, "Who needs all this grief?" But consider, for a moment, the origin of pearls.
Each pearl is formed by an oyster's internal response to a wound caused by an irritant, such as a grain of sand. Resources of repair rush to the injured area. The final result is a lustrous pearl. Something beautiful is created that would have been impossible without the wound.
In today's Bible reading, we see Joseph in a position of influence, a position God soon used to feed surrounding nations and Joseph's family during famine. But how did he become influential? It began with a wound—being sold into slavery (Genesis 39)—which produced a pearl of usefulness. Because Joseph drew on God's resources when humiliated, he became better, not bitter. He named his second son Ephraim, which means "twice fruitful," and he said, "God has caused me to be fruitful in the land of my affliction" (41:52).

Author Paul E. Billheimer says of Joseph, "If human pity could have rescued him from the sad part of his life, the glorious part that followed would have been lost." So if you're suffering, remember: No wounds, no pearls! —Joanie Yoder
If we accept adversity,Enduring every pain,Then we will learn what we should know;Our grief will turn to gain. —Sper

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Just a little dream

四月二十九日, 星期五.我给自己写下的...

接近将一个星期画上句点的时候. 可以感觉到分分秒秒从我的指缝中滑过. 有点不舍也有点恨不得周末的到来. 人, 总爱在矛盾中徘徊. 我比较愿意去选择潇洒些. 太多灰色地带, 不够真实. 如果我可以无所谓地把头发给束起来, 让着阳光放肆地照耀... 穿着白色衬衫与牛仔裤, 潇潇洒洒地在希腊群岛游荡. 纵使是一个人, 我也一样可以拥有100%的幸福. 因为天空会很蓝, 海会很浪漫, 上帝很会真实.

Enough for the Chinese part...
Honestly, I am not looking forward to weekend. I am just earnestly looking forward for a vacation. I want to be in a place where I can have it all. A place where I can stroll around the unending street with colors and scenes. A place where I can picture myself taking every breath with excitement and thrill. A place where I can be where He is. I know I am silly because I desperately long for a break. A break from the world around me... I wanna run away.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

More than just stories... Part ~ Alpha

这是一种另类的开始... 不太相信我会选择将自己的心情点滴向世界宣告. 但, 我依然执意地做了这决定. 很任性. 很自我.

Finally... Angeline convinced me to blog.
Still not too sure if I will keep my persistency in posting but it is a great way to keep connected with my friends and love ones.

I like what the Lord said, "I am the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last."
Let's start with the Alpha and I want Him in it.