After I spoke to Chisso, I started to ponder about how truly Christians know why they chose to believe God and declared that they would follow Christ for the rest of their lives. Why do you believe?
Was it happened out of convenience? Was it a sudden urge? Was it because of someone? Were you expecting a better life? Were you trying to find peace in life? Or you whole-heartedly recognized that the true grace's offered to you when you did not deserve any bit of it?
Chisso’s commented about how a person believed righteousness was found in him/her even before Christ entered his/her heart, which led to no total conviction and radical change. A piece of pride was brought in with him/her in a relationship with the all loving and jealous God.
Even though the Bible says that it is God who purifies the desire of a man, I am sadden by the fact that we often fail to understand the cost of redemption. Is it too simple and easy to obtain God’s grace, so that people take it so lightly? Knowing that the grace of God will penetrate the heart of man as time goes, but what if that individual choose to not to come to term with that?
His love is true, and His salvation is irrevocable. Everything has its timing and our lives are a process to a higher calling. Recognize this and check ourselves, why did I first believe? Did I know that I was supposed to be on that cross? Did I know the cost that the Son of Men has paid? Did I know that I did not deserve all this but in exchange, He laid down His life, so that I could have mine?
