I am not around

Just to let you know…
I am not answering my phone, emails, and messages
I am not around, even if I am here
Forgive me

I feel comforted after reading Hua Jing’s blog because we are on the same boat of tiredness. If you want to know my hereabouts, this is it…

I am overloaded with pressure from all sides
I have plenty of work needs to be done, which “Excellence” is the only acceptable result
I have my plans around my career, which I have to execute
I have dear friends who need my time and love
I have my precious family that longs to hear my voice and laughter
I have the one and only temple of the Lord to take care of
I have my personal devotion and quiet time to hold myself together
… The most important is that I need to have time ALONE with my God.

So… how am I doing now?
Let alone tiredness…
I lost my appetites for food
Yet hunger casts on me the “fainting spell”
Energy is drained to the rock bottom every night before I slumber on my bed
My left knee is causing me pain without reason
Emotionally, I am fine just a sense of “Isolation” is still clinging on me
Spiritually, I am wired up because I cannot stop, I have to run
I don’t have time and He is before me

You should be flattered, if someone would like to have a piece of you in his/her life.
Nevertheless, just like what Aragorn told Eowny, “It is but a shadow and a thought that you love, I cannot give you what you seek.” – I feel the same way to some others.